About a week ago I was walking through the house headed for the kitchen to make coffee as I do the first thing every morning as soon as I get up.  As I was headed to the kitchen I was thinking of how strong I have felt God’s presence in this house ever since I retired.  It made me realize even more that I am doing the right thing. Then the thought struck me that I wanted our Pastor and the Elders to come over and bless the house.   I have never done that before any where I have lived and have never even thought of it.  Maybe it was one of those times that God speaks to my heart and it is what he wanted.   So this past Sunday I invited our Pastor, the Elders of our church and their families to come over for dinner after church.  After we ate the Pastor and the Elders blessed our house.  They anointed all entrances and all rooms of the house and said a prayer in each room.

This past year there  has been so many changes in my life.  I guess I have finally after all these years really started learning how “to Let Go and Let God”.   I left my job which was a good job and I have many friends there whom I love very much and went to work for my son in law.  His business is in California so I had to go out there and stayed for 7 months.  Then when I came back home I worked for him here doing some of the accounting.  When I first met Richard at first I was my old self and did not want to get married and really had to do an attitude adjustment on myself. Which I might add, an attitude adjustment on myself was something I had never even considered doing before.  I had been divorced for 12 years and every time I met anyone and things started getting serious I looked for things wrong and of course I found them.   You look for something you will find it.  And my attitude was,  “I don’t have to take nothing from nobody. My life is just fine like it is. I don’t have to put up with anything.   I like pulling up in my drive and going in my house and not having anyone putting me down and arguing , no one telling me what I can and cannot do.   My time is my time and I can do with it what I want .  The only thing controlling me was TIME.”  But he was patient with me and told me that we would get married someday and he could be patient.   My thinking slowly started to change and I would stop and think about his needs, his rights and what he wanted.  If I started getting those old thoughts and would get angry about something I would stop and think, “how important is this, should I really be angry about this or am I just looking for something wrong, doesn’t he have some rights too.”  Something else that was not at all like me for the past 12 years.   So I started praying about it and asked God to just lead me and help me to do the right thing.  I learned to just put it in God’s hands and not try to control things myself.  As a Co-Dependent  trying to control things is a really big thing we do.  Finally I agreed to marry him and  I might add it was the second time I had agreed but had backed out the first time.   Still I would find myself having doubts and wondering what in the world am I doing and am I doing the right thing. I was trying but still had not completely let go.  I started planning the wedding but each time I thought of sending out the wedding invitations I could not bring myself to do it because if I did then it would make it even harder to back out.  Finally I had no choice but to hurriedly get them mailed or forget it.  Still I was not sure what I would do. Would I say I DO or would I back out.  Still I  was determined to let God lead and I would follow.   If you look at my wedding photos you will see what the outcome was. (Smile)  When we said I DO and the preacher said you may kiss the bride,  Richard looked at me and said, “I told you so” and I burst out laughing. Now instead of getting aggravated about something he does or doesn’t do it really doesn’t bother me because I know it really isn’t important. Life is so wonderful when we leave it in God's hands.